Lost in cyberspace.

    Oh internet, purveyor of random facts.  Have we created a monster?  How did I get from one thought to another that is so distantly removed from the original?  I'll try to explain what happened here, one step at a time.  Thought process as follows:
     Snowshoeing to Stewart Falls?  How high up on the mountain is it and which road do I take? Will it even be open?  Google Maps, satellite view, Mt Timpanogas.  Get distracted looking at map.  Remember something I saw on a previous adventure, must locate on map.  Exact location unsuccessful.  Initiate street view.  Unavailable.  View user-submitted Panoramia photos from Google Maps.  Zoom out and wander around.  Somehow go from Wasatch front to west shore of Utah Lake.  Continue panning, zooming, etc.  End up viewing Dugway Proving Grounds (DPG) on map.  Read Google user submitted reviews about Dugway and UFO/military conspiracy theories.  Google it.  Read about controversial incident involving a couple thousand nearby open range sheep getting killed from open air biological weapons testing.  Army doesn't accept fault but pays rancher for the dead sheep anyways. Find mention of long since rerouted and closed section of Historic Lincoln Highway passing through Dugway.  What was Lincoln Highway?  Google it.  First continental highway from Times Square, NY to Lincoln Park, San Francisco in early 1910's.  Research to find original route through Utah.  Refer back to Google Maps for tracing route.  Find small town of Cedar Fort.  Curious.  Google Cedar Fort.  Census results and demographics data.  Population < 400.  Cedar Fort on Wikipedia.  Other nearby communities listed.  Click around.  Refer back to Google Maps for reference.  Click on more neighboring towns, all of which are less than 750 residents.  Find a couple that are comprised primarily of remote religious groups.  Google them.  Read about it.  Weird.  Backtrack to Lincoln Highway.  Route passes a springs and wildlife refuge oasis in the middle of the west desert salt flats.  Find it on Wikipedia.  Only source: underground mountain aquifer.  Only output: evaporation.  Read that fish living in the springs are direct descendents of fish that lived in the ancient inland-ocean sized Lake Bonneville.  Back to communities page in Wikipedia.  Click through them.  Read about Mona.  Actually been there once last summer.  Has lavender farms and a lavender festival.  Unusual thing to find in Utah.  Mental note: must discover if they know how to make the lavender lemonade that I love in Oregon.  Read more.  Burl Ives was once jailed in Mona for singing a song that authorities considered to be "bawdy".  Familiar name, but who was Burl Ives?  Link to Wikipedia on Burl Ives.  Well known, actor, writer, singer.  Once blacklisted as a communist supporter during the red scare of the 50s.  Voiced the snowman from 1964's stop motion animated film, Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer.  Known to Star Wars fans as the narrator of a made-for-tv movie written by George Lucas with the title, Caravan of Courage: An Ewok Adventure.  Ewok Adventure is what I called a movie I watched as a kid.  Click link for Caravan of Courage...  Discover what I remembered was the actual movie title to my childhood favorite, Ewoks: The Battle for Endor.  Realize that I have only ever seen the sequel and that Ewok Adventure was actually the one that I have never seen.
     Look at clock and realize time.  Stand up.  Stretch.  Realize path from snowshoeing to ewoks via Google satellite maps and Wikipedia.  Mind Blown.

Go read something else. No seriously.

     Oh yeah remember that thing I mentioned not too long ago.  I thought there was a pretty good chance with one in particular.  So I tried.  I got my hopes up.  I actually felt like I could be myself around her.  For whatever reason I don't meet many people like that.  It was pretty cool.  But then, oh guess what!  I failed.  Not even sure how it happened this time, except that this one guy (who I was sure was interested in someone else entirely) just swooped in out of nowhere and shabam!  Facebook official.  How does this even happen so fast?  What is the big rush of getting into relationships anyhow?  I guess I'm a bit old school.  Or perhaps I just got caught in the friend zone again.  It happens all too often.  It's just how I operate by default.  They may show interest at first but by the time I have gotten to know them well enough, they've changed their mind and moved on, leaving me as just that nice guy that they're friends with.  As you may have noticed, I'm feeling rather cynical at the present time.  A bit of sleuthing on everyone's favorite social addiction provided some details that I am particularly irked by.  I probably shouldn't divulge too much information, however I do feel that I was mislead by excuses made that seemed indisputable at the time.  Worst part is, I'm sure I'll get to see them regularly at church and related activities.  That's not really the most enjoyable concept.  I've dealt with this before, albeit in much worse of circumstances, but perhaps I'll just lay low for a while.  Eh, lets face it, I'll probably just be my same old self.  Friend zone.  Time to just accept defeat and add one more to the list.
     Question: Am I just bad at showing when I'm genuinely interested?  Or am I genuinely just not that interesting?   Oh well.  It doesn't really matter anymore.  The goal was set.  And it was achieved.  I have surpassed the roommate.  And yet, I feel no accomplishment.  Nor do I feel any further motivation or obligation.  Every time I try, I end up with a sick pit in my gut and an increasing lack of faith in humanity!  To avoid becoming too much of a cynic and as a measure of self preservation, I tend to simply avoid the cause of those feelings.  I have better things to do than waste my time and money trying to get to know people that don't care about getting to know me.
     If you actually read this, I'm sorry.  I did warn you though.  Also, if any of you speak a word of this to anyone, by golly I swear I'll hang you by your ankles and tickle you until you pass out.  But seriously, no one reads these posts anyhow.  I wrote it for me to help in getting it off my chest and for no other purpose.  I think I'm done here.  That is all.